Ayaw na.

Ayaw na. Too much. I think I've given myself the freedom to feel and act like the stupidest creature in town. Okay na ko. Awat na sa katangahan.

Relationships

I've never been in a relationship that lasted longer than a sem.. It might be my fault but I really don't care anymore. I haven't been in one for 6 or 7 years now but I'm okay with it.. Well I'd like to think that I'm okay with it. ☺ I don't like the feeling of getting hurt over and over again. I might go mad if it happened / happen again. So there.. Just my two cents. Never hurt people even if you're killing yourself just to keep your temper down

X

My heart is somewhere else..

Happiness? Yes please! 😜

Just coz I couldnt move on.

            [ The caption says it all :) ]

Finally a picture with Bam! Hahaha! Photobombing lang dapat to pero Rhensz opted out of the picture. Ahahahah! Alam naaaa! Thanks friend! Love youuu ❤

X

 

Raf

You'd think this post is about you.. Well yes it is.

I would like to say thank you for being the most amazing man that I've shared a bed with. You definitely are my F&R man. Not "my" in a very in a relationship status though. I may have misinterpreted your intentions before and hurt like hell til now but Im okay with what we have. Or what we dont have. I never thought Id fall for you this hard.. Dont get me wrong I tried so hard to remove all the feelings for you but I guess youre the only person who could do that in a snap. I could call you all the fcked up names that I know but I wont. I wont go that far. I love you. You can dismiss that and Id still feel the same way anyway.

Gusto ko lang malaman mong nasaktan mo ako. Nasasaktan actually --dahil sa inaraw araw ng buhay ko naiisip kita. PUTANGAMA DIBA?! Sakit mo sa ulo, sa mata at sa lahat ng parte ng katawan ko. Sana nananakit ka nalang.. Ng pisikal. Para naman alam ko kung saan ang masakit at para di ako umiiyak ng walang dahilan. Mahal kita pero kada may nangyayari.. Nawawalan ako ng gana sayo. Pero pagkatapos meron nanaman. Anong problema ko? Anong problema naten? Pano nga ulet tayo nauwi sa gantong klase ng usapan?

Kung mawala man ako.. Mahal kita yun lang :)

X

Ano ba.

I want a love that would last a lifetime not some booty call when a man is in need. I keep wanting things that are not for me.. And it often leaves me with a question.. "Love, are you for me?" Might sound pathetic to some but I kinda think that I would be in the "single blessedness" category of Gods list. I honestly don't know how to react to what I just typed or said (salityped) :))))) I feel blessed for having a family that may not be complete but who completes me (my mom and my sister) even though there are times that I feel nagged by my sister --for not having a job.. STILL :/ I know she's just concerned and all so let go of feeling nagged :))) Blessed to have the most amazing, least judgmental, fun and liberated friends who I love just like a real sibling would :) I cannot thank them enough for being there for me at all times :D

Wala nagemote lang ako! Hahahaha

X

Mara

Situation Endless.

I've been trying to clean up the mess that I created about 2 months ago but I just couldn't stop going back to messing things up for myself. Wow, right? Me and my fickle, messed up mind.

I think Im still enjoying the perks of the mess that I started.. Or I don't know, am I really enjoying it? Hmm. Well I haven't stopped so maybe, I am enjoying myself and enjoying my stupid decisions for now. If this is YOLO-ing then.. Its all good. I haven't been in a mess like this my whole life so why not try to mess my life a bit, right? Hahahahahahah! Sorry I am CRAZY! 💃 

I'm pretty sure it will end.. Maybe not now but I dunno.. Soonish? I'm not really looking forward to messing up my life forever though. Hahahaha! I'd love to think that I still have a brighter future ahead so YOLO-ing for the moment is something good for me 😊 I'll be serious as soon as I can! Hahahahaha!!

My peg : YOUNG. WILD. FREE.

--While we still can :)

I'm not getting any younger so I'd rather enjoy myself now than regret it when I have a family of my own 😉 #OANaFastforwardYan 😏 HAHAHAHAH!! 

Hmmmm.

Be young. Be dope. Be proud. -Lana Del Rey 😈

X

Mara

Sht happens :/

No sleep. FML.

HASHTAG PUYAT HASTAG KULANGSALABIDABS FVCKR :)) #CHARAUGHT

There he goes again..

Just when you're done thinking and obsessing about that person.. He suddenly pops up again /:

HASHTAG KILLMENOW HASHTAG MINDFVCK 

HASHTAG STOPMESSINGWITHMYHEAD

Ebooks 2k13 :)

EBooks! Yeauhh! 16 books preoccupy me! Bahahaha! Thanks to @ebooks4less2013 for very affordable ebooks! 2php/book! Amazing right?! Hihi Love them all!!

Good read :)

Got ebooks for my kindle :) 1st read = Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist! Amazing as fvck! Loving it to bits! And here are some amazing parts!! 

When Norah finally talked to Tal :)

Dev talking about The Beatles' song "I wanna hold your hand" ❤

I just wanna say this.. Holding hands with the one you love is really something. Giggles all over your system. This is for all ages may I just add 😊

So there :) Loving it!!

X

Mara

Not getting any..

MUST TAKE THE EDGE OFF. :( 

Anyare sa buhay natin..

Everyday is a struggle that we should face. It is what it is. Lately I've been waking up late coz being jobless is really something.. Im extra lazy lately.. NOT. Im trying to find a job.. AGAIN. Its really hard  to find one.. Ewan ko ba. I feel weird not being a nurse. AS IF NAMAN NAGING NURSE NA AKO :| Oh well. I miss the ER :( EWAN KO BA KUNG BAT DI KO MAISCHED ANG BUHAY KO DUN :(( I need a breather. I need it badly. 

XX

Something.

Whatever a relationship is if it isnt going anywhere might as well end it before someone gets hurt.

Who's yo crush?

Can people call me Pebbles for the moment?👌

So Im crushing on this guy from SFC and over crushing again. Hahaha :))

BAMM BAMM BAMM BAMM :)))

While you walk..

So I went out today.. Mostly to inquire about Nursing jobs however I only got to go to 2 hospitals since I did stuff at MKT.

Camp Aguinaldo --In love with nature ang peg!! Lemme show you the photos :) #photodiary :))

--Akala ni kuya guard sa labas chics ako! Hahahah! NOT! I love walking :)) I dooooo!!!! ❤

       

       

Mejo pagod na. Pero.. AJA! Hahaha.

 

SMILE!! 👌

Theres a light at the end of the tunnel! Lol Makakarating rin ako sa bet kong puntahan :))) 

Anddddd there it issss! Congrats!! :)))

The sky is just so beautiful! #ThanksBro luper ng creation mo :)

St Ignatius church / chapel :)

My tireeeeed footsies! Haaay :)

Amazing day! Thanks Lord for not letting it rain.. Mejo umambon but still you made the sun shine and di tumuloy ang ulan!! Thanks po!! ❤

XX

Soooo.. Superb Sale Bazaar!!

Went there with Jo :) First time to be with a friend in an event like that! Fuuuunzo! :)) 

Not so many shops to go to pero keri :) And i finally got the #WEGarage tote! Not the one that I like the most but the 2nd one! Looool :))) and I saw THE JERIC MEDINA :) Long time man, long time. 

Haven't seen this man in FOREVER! Yes we kind of are friends. LOL! Funny that he still remembers me! Kalooorks!! Can I just say that he didnt change? Physically, yes but everything about him is just the same as the one that Ive met 6 or 7 years ago! Hahaha. So humble and charming as always! Great seeing you man :)

Jo, k ka pa? :p

Lakas makadigital karma netong araw na to. Umaaay mats. Hoho!! Thanks Jo! Til next hang ouuut! :D

Breakfast with Lo 💆

So I went out to meet up with the ever charming Eych. Hahahahah!! Ever charming talaga lol! He's one of those overly straight forward men you'll meet in your life na you might find rude and mean  but since I know him.. Normal na :)) This is us earlier at McDo :) 

And this is us way back college -- 

Funnnnneh right? Parang wala namang nagbago e. Hahahah!! :)) Missed him kahit inaaway lang ako kaninech!! :))))

XX|TRV❤

Blogger on my phone!

So I have #Blogger on my phone na!!!! Im definitely going to post stuff more offfffften! Hahahaha :))) #EGGGGZITED :))

MIA Forever

Wanting to be a part of something but screwing it up. Life shouldnt be hurried nor should you be too slow to catch up. I miss the old me but I dont wanna be overly stressed ever again. Thats me. Feeling superbly cool in that photo. Lol

KMN. /carotid

Parang wala naman silang karapatang sabihing wala akong ginagawa e. IM TRYING MY BEST. GET IT?! Hindi ba halata? ^%$#@#$%^%#@#%^%#%^%#@%^%#@%^%$#%^%$ Ang hirap hirap pag ganto ung pakiramdam. Ang saket na sa puso e.. Parang lagi nalang akong ganto talunan sa mga bagay na gusto kong makuha.. Kahit nga ung kailangan kong makuha e. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. NAKAKAWALA NA NG GANA. Minsan naiisip ko sana ako nalang ung ibang tao.. Di na ako makuntento sa kung anong meron ako. Gusto kong kumawala.. Gusto kong baguhin ung ruta ng buhay ko, pwede ba yun? Gusto ko nalang ung mejo achievable na goals nalang. Lakas ko kase maka gold standard e. WALA NAMAN AKONG MAPALA. Puro pangako.. Puro asa. !#%&^#^^%#%^##%^&^%#!%^&*&^# E WALA NA. Malapit na.. Malapit ko ng tapusin ang buhay ko.. Pero wala pa ring magandang nangyayari. HAY.

My life w/ nursing. :/

Just don't fall
Recklessly, headlessly in love with me
Cause it's gonna be
All heartbreak
Blissfully painful and insanity
If we agree
Oh, you can hang with me.

-This is nursing telling me to stop being in love with him ):